I now have a Saint Bernard. God has a sense of humor.
God has a sense of humor. I prayed for him; now I have him. I also gained a supposedly very large family, a Saint Bernard, and possibly another cat. Beyond their size, how has my life actually changed? I am seen. I am heard. I am loved. I am wanted. I am giving grace and learning patience. Letting go of control and seeing things from a lighter side of life. I struggle with all of this. Learning to trust someone has been the hardest thing I have had to do in a long time. I want to self-sabotage because I don't feel like I earned any of this. I am not deserving of this type of care and love. But I am. I more than am. There are moments when overwhelming pride and confidence overtake me, and then I become the spawn of Jezebel. Learning to control that side of me is easier than I anticipated, but I can see how out of control I could be if God wasn't in my life. My babies are happier. ----------------------- I don't really know how to recap what has h...