7/19
7/19 - always the date I write, not when I post. What am I learning from the Bern? I enjoy his company and conversation too much. Not sexually, but I know that's where my soul goes for connection. What is it about him? I'm connecting to driving. Control with guidance... I want to describe the thoughts that went through my head and you'll have to remember these later because right now you're driving my thoughts and connectivity to drop my connection with driving and how that connects to my life. Mom has been talking about letting go of her wheel and letting God do the driving, I am not at that level of enlightenment however I am on the path of trusting the guidance laid out before me as I've asked for the path of where I want to go. In other words I see things more of letting go of how to get there because I've already set my goal of where I want to go to. So I have to trust now that the path laid out in front of me to get to where I want to go is the right and ...
